Xanga Fears

Elevated to RED- Defcon 1: Xanga Fear(s)

(Defcon Site)

I browsed those websites by the Xanga people and was initially amused with the ugly background, templates and noisy designs. But then, as I kept exploring, I found myself having strange reactions:

1) clammy palms
2) quickening heartbeats pace
3) eyes darting across the screen in fear of something will come out
4) biting my nails then whatever was after the nails
5) sweating

I stopped by slamming my iBook shut and took a deep breath... what had trigger such nervousness into me?! Well, after serious analysis on my reactions, I came to realize that those Xanga sites instilled fear into me. The major and only reason was: the constant "due to my privacy" or "for my protection"... most of them somehow block free-roaming americans (like me) from exploring on their freedom of speech posts-- and the only way I could read their "valulable" empty intelligence spouts was to ask them for permission to "subscribe."

I browsed 36 different sites and was only able to read 5. So, for those who appreciate stats, approximately 86% of the Xanga sites were blocked.

Why? Different reasons and the most common reason I came upon was, "I work at school" and/or "I am a teacher and I need to be careful with what I say."

I'm going to teach HS English this coming fall. Do I now have a dilemma in my hands? Off the point, I slowly came to this comparison... Xanga is no better than Bush and his exploits on the Media. Instilling fear into us, making us believe that the terrorists are a threat (yeah right, we're more of a threat to other countries). Now they go off saying there would be a 70% chance of a WMD attack in a decade... nice of them to include the stats (where did they get that stats in the first place anyway?). It's so friggin' ridiculous to have stats on something that did not historically or measurably happen and it's so Bushism to measure something that's nonexistent in order to control gullible (seemingly in high numbers) US idiots.

Good thing for my "questioning the authority" at every chance possible, I was able to calm down and think to myself,

"Honey, the Xangas are like the Republics using loud and noisy (eye sore as well) Humvees when desgining across the tarmac."

Despite my brillance in questioning the authority and seeing through the ridiculous Xanga fears, I still have this nagging question in my mind, should I be careful with what I blog? I am sure my students will be avid website explorers.

Tonight I know I will be dreaming about Xanga, Bush, the Media, Color coded bars and then Michael Moore will come and rescue me.

Oh yes, speaking of Moore, I want a T-shirt of his face on the front, like you would see of Che, and on the back would say, "Moore please!"



Not to disrespect those who died under Che's brutual rampage but I simply like the design.

Anyway, I've taken enough of your time, now go and browse the Xanga sites! Beware! Guard your intelligences well!

i'm not getting married, i'm not! i'm not!

Well. I'm not getting married and don't make me repeat myself. I'll tell you why. Marriage was made as a joke. "four score and a year ago" however Abe'd say it... long time ago, our fathers (the males) wanted more power. In order to gain power, they were to have valuable assests such as: land, animals and probably the sky. So, a dilemma, how can they get the sky if they don't have it in the first place. Also, the females were a nuisance.

So, my dear Watsons, here's a simple marriage formula invented by the cavemen:

Tarzan wants sky + females a nusiance = Jane Doe gets sold.

So you see, women were sold (usually against their will and don't give me any oppositional crap) and their lives usually plundered while their papa barely reached the sky but got the damn brown lawn.

Another reason: why the hell would I want a priest, a rabbi or some form of pompous holier-than-thou to officiate my love? That's so ridiculous. If "God" is so omnipotent, why would he need a mere flesh of an idiot to confirm it?

Now.. the history of marriage, the officiation of marriage... why not get married through the judge?

Heck no, why would I lessen my love by submitting it to the government? Tax or not, love should have no price to it.

Finally, why would I need to pay hundreds of bucks to declare my love and suck hundreds of bucks out of your pocket for making you witness it?

Snorts, marriage is so near-sighted.

I'm going to be Andie MacDowell and my honey will be Hugh Grant... I'm boldly standing up and saying this to jk, "will you NOT marry me?"

Oh joy. I love being a deviant, it's arousing.

P.S. this is no disrespect to your marriages (and probably a major of you have had failed ones)

P.S. it's totally unrelated but extremely relevant: do you notice something fishy?!?! they "busted" and probably "saved" americans' ass when discovering those men at Lodi, California-- those men tied to the "al Qeda"--- and at the same time, our dear dear Dubya is pressing for the reauthorization of the Patriot Act. Please tell me, I'm not imagining things????

what do you think?

I went swimming the other day, at RIT INN, where deaf people usually flock there. Being there, I wished that I had owned sunglasses so I could conceal my stares as I oggle at idiotic conversations. I had a friend with me and we shared mind-reading conversations with our eyes and she said, "if we could tax on morons, America would be flithy rich!"

So very true. Anyway, the point of this blog, I gotta ask you for your opinions based on the etiquettes of deaf world. Let me set up the scene:

There were two deaf guys and a hearing woman (she could sign ASL well)... the deaf guys were playing in a pool with some Disney cartoons on the ball while the hearing girl was sunbasking on the pool's lawn chair. Based on few minutes worth of observation, I could tell that the hearing girl was a couple with one of the deaf boy. How could I tell, well, they kept talking (pathetically, mind you) to each other. For instance, he would say things like, "ha ha, you're stuck with me, hee hee" and she would say, "well I am not stuck with you unless you give me a ring well then!" (that's a huge hint to bomb on that poor young deafie kid). They exchanged the overrated "ILY" sign few times.

ANYWAY... now this is where I ask you for your opinion: They were feebly 'flirting' each other and the guy splashed the pool's cold water on her. She obviously was wee bit teed off-- and she said, "ohh grrr! you know that I don't like that!! well now let me punish you... you know the punishment..."

My friend and I stared in sick fascination... "where is it? where's it... oooo" cooing as she searched the area... and then said, "ah ha!"

She picked up his hearing aids... brought it closer to the pool and actually dangled it milimeters above the wavy water. Her boyfriend was appalled and said, "no, don't! stop, that's not funny"

She swooped it closer and nearly wet the hearing aids. I could see that in her eyes, she found it funny, but in his eyes, he DID not.

Safe to say, his male buddy stood in stony silence hoping that the girl wouldn't dip the aids into the pool meanwhile, my friend and I stared in horror.

I turned to my friend and said, "that's ENTIRELY inappropriate!!!"

What do you think? I mean, was that funny or what? I could tell that he was hard of hearing and that he highly valued his hearing aids. I mean, you don't dip someone's wheelchair into the pool, right? Or even, dangle a blind man's walking stick in a threatening position.

Grr. I gotta say, my feathers were ruffled! I don't care much about hearing aids but man, that was a taboo acted, especially by a hearing woman oblivious to the etiquettes of the deaf world.

VOTE here!

Was what she did (threatening his hearing aids) a taboo?
	Yes, damn!
	Well, I think so.
	Nah.
	Nope, hearing aids sucks!
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P.S. After they got out of the pool, dried themselves and he put on his "dry" hearing aids, he stopped signing, she stopped signing and they chatted away with each other through voice, no signs.

Dreams... distorted ones

I've been having maddening dreams, mind you, of cows attacking me. One cow was a mixture of a Rottweiler and actually had horns of a bull... it barked and moo'd, something like this mooarf! They were eating a skull of a fish/human with teeth of a dog and someone threw that skull to me when I was swimming happily in some Philippines beach. The two cows (that Mooarf and a white cow) pounced onto me, dunking me into the water and tried to eat me (because I had the residues of the skull's grease, eew I know). The next thing I know, the Mooarf tried to stop the white cow from attacking me but it was too late, that damn cow bit my jaw and I heard it craaaaack! I jerked awake.

Dreams. Gotta love them. I also dreamt that I was waiting for a friend to bring me his baby over. When they finally arrived, the father handed down the baby to me but in my dream, that baby was mine and it was severely distorted in a Dali-like art-- except for one teensy weensy deformity and that is, a long long hot dog like dick sticking out (a boner) as well as another pencil like dick (hard as well) sticking out of the right nipple. The baby's head was so huge and I tried not to show my expressions of disgust so I wouldn't offend the father.

And then it gurgled.

Mister Sandman must really dislike me or something!

hi, I'm alive!

Someone said, "please write a new blog! the "Squeak when you're in rochester" is getting old...

So here I am. Time has flown by quickly and I really have nothing to say due to being in a "fog" and probably will continue to feel this way for few more weeks! We move to CA on June 26th or so, and believe me, I cannot wait.

Anyway, news of the day. When reading CNN the other day, I was appalled with what I saw. A judge in Kentucky or Tennenssee (I forget already, some form of mental block perhaps!) did something unconsitutitional. You see, he sentenced any type of law offenders or violaters a weird type of "punishment". Rather than sending the offenders (remember, any kind... sexual to petty theft) to jail or having them doing community service, he orders them to go to "worship services" for specific hours. Rather than a deserving punishment, they are expected to go to church!

I cannot believe that. I mean, suppose someone assaulted my daughter and has to go to church for it and goodness knows, probably gets forgiven whilst my daughter would forever be traumatized! Seriously, what is the MATTER with the Americans? Not trying to bash religious fanatics but still, going to church does not solve ANYTHING, learning about God doesn't give miraculous solutions and converting into a specific religion does not cure one from its own sickness.

Sighs. I saw this quote and I had to refrain myself from using it as my e-mail signature... a lot of people would be offended.

"I keep the Bible in a pool of blood, so that none of its lies can affect me"

Good huh?

P.S. I am ENTITLED to my own OPINIONS and there are PLENTY of Bible thumpers who will get pissed with my post and know what? Screw you. You've done enough and lemme do my piece.