I should be working but...

I can't get enough of kissing my own self on my soft luscious lips... (not Cat's, thank you very much)



Mmm hmm
Ohh
Ohh oh oh
You'll always be my sunshine



Sunshine
You'll always be my sunshine
No one compares to you
Don't you go, don't you go nowhere (No)
You make all my dreams come true (They're comin true, comin true for me, yeah)
And thats why you'll always be my sunshine
My sunshine



When I see you
I got to stop to catch my breath, oh
Because it's somethin that you do to me
That I just can't express
And it may seem kind of crazy but it's true
Everything is all about you, yeah



Sunshine
You'll always be my sunshine (You'll always be my sunshine)
No compares to you
Don't you go, don't you go nowhere
You make all my dreams come true (They're comin true yeah)
And thats why you'll always be my sunshine
My sunshine



Sun doesn't aim right
And sometimes it may pour
Oh yeah
But you always seem to bring me so much joy
People may not understand but who cares
You're always right there
Please don't go no where



And everytime I'm feelin lonely
Lonely, you're right there
And like an angel
You're always right on time
So glad you're finally mine



Sunshine
You'll always be my sunshine
No compares to you
Don't you go, don't you go nowhere
You make all my dreams come true (They're comin true)
And thats why you'll always be my sunshine (My sunshine, my sunshine)
Sunshine (You'll always be, you'll always be)
You'll always be my sunshine
No compares to you
Don't you go, don't you go nowhere (Please don't, please don't go)
You make all my dreams come true (Stay right here)
And thats why you'll always be my sunshine



LAAAAAH!

Admit it... you can't get enough of me TOO!!!!

What's up? Hallowhee!!

That's what. Well-- really, I've been wondering about what I oughta wear for Hallowhee... I wanted to go nutty with it and scare my students that I am a human being, not a teacher. Well, I decided today, after feeling thoroughly exhausted and fed up with those forever shrinking maternity shirts-- that I'll do something "lazy" yet "allowed". Can you guess what I'll be for Hallowhee?

Yep! A little girl with freckles, ponytails, a teddy bear and PAJAMAS!!! (I'll need to borrow or buy frilly pink slippers).

For the first time, I feel like I'm a frickin' genius in weeks!!

Here's the slipper I would love having:



Well-- I could use it when I'm in the L/D giving birth to our wee babe, eh?

Oh yea-- I also waddle around now, you see, I feel like I have this little santa helper or elf continually hammering his wee pellet on my pubic bone, splitting it into half and my right rib cage area is swollen and feels bruised-- Rochy is having fun you see, pressing his/her head on the dang cervix and banging my rib cage away with the legs/feet.

I'm still so tiny, according to the public that APPARENTLY thinks they know better-- (not my hotshot dr. craig, he says I'm perfectly on track and flattered me by saying I am long waisted and Rochy had plenty of space to hide). Anyway, to the point, people's comment about "oh wow, you're so tiny!" is ANNOYING! I'll shout in joy when someone says, "wow, you're big!!"

I had some bellyiful fun and got my belly painted, twice. Will do some more as I want most of my family members to participate so our Rochy's journal will look at least artistic. Here are two pictures of my painted belly.

Tree of Life by Lis Cassidy-- I asked her to paint our baby's names (which remains, to this day, a secret)... I told her that the boy's intials would be "XYZ" (being hush hush here) and the girl's name would mean sea dweller that brings light and both have oak tree in their names. Anyway... so Lis painted this:



And, my good ol' sweetie pie with his fun sense of humor (no sarcasm here, per se!) decided to draw my belly growing "bigger" (yay!) and called this, "Pumping the Balloon Until It Pops!":



You like? I do! More on way...

Alright, it's WAAAAY past my bedtime (I can't sleep anymore and I'm psyching myself out-- hope it works).

Luv luv luv-

psst-- I got around 34 teaching days left until winter break/maternity leave. Praise be, I overtly love my baby already.

"pulling a tooth that won't come loose"

A person said that to me sometimes this past week and said it was how she felt. I couldn't agree more with that! This past week I've been so exhausted due to many factors-- and now during these days, I've almost fallen asleep in my classes, twice. Good thing I am co-teaching, that way I could dismiss myself to the staff's restroom. One time I actually sat on the toliet and rested my head on the toliet paper roll (oh it was heavenly) and closed my eyes for a few good minutes.

On the fun side, I got to baby sit the wyns (Cat's kids) on Friday night and had a good time. We all drank hot apple cider with chopped apples and warm caramel on the side... during a candlelit snack time, we three hunched over the caramel bowl (which was tiny). I think I could see all of us "moaning" in pleasure with the warm caramel. It was so so so perfect.

The next day, Mally wanted to draw on my belly-- I made sure she wouldn't draw my belly with something toxic-- so we ended up using a blue highlighter. She drew "CFUN" on it (that's the name she has bestowed on Rochy). While Jahren added more pictures of a baby, of a heart, an attempt to spell LOVE (OEV) and numbers on it... as well as a truck 'chugging' (that's exactly what Jahren said), heh.

I thoroughly enjoyed it, know why? the moist and cool tip of that marker actually was soothing, I felt like I was getting some kind of professional massage. I kept encouraging them to 'keep drawing, Cfun really likes it!' It's true anyway, I didn't need to say anything because when they drew on my belly, Rochy kept kicking and pushing and shakin' my belly. The Wyns really loved it.

Anyway! Here's a picture of Jahren drawing on my belly:



And here are the wyns, proud of their masterpiece:



And well, here's my sequence belly photos, I didn't want to wait until this coming Saturday to complete the 4th row.



Well!! I don't know if it is my pregnancy hormones talking but, I've been feeling different lately. I feel like I am becoming a boring person, who is pregnant and will become a stay at home mother (SAHM). Not to offend any SAHMs!! You see, people come up to JK and talk about my pregnancy, "how's Clare and the baby?" Or when I go to parties, the Pee Wee's Blue couch conversation of the night would be my pregnancy (or twin issues). I feel like my identity is slowly being stripped away and changing into some "wholesome" image.

I've grown up having "identity" issues here at the bay area. Naturally, when you are an identical twin, you could kiss your individiuality good-bye. I kissed it and said "see you later" when I moved to the East and went to colleges. Returning back here, I immediately was smacked with "which one are you" identity. Now, it's either "which one are you?" or "how's your pregnancy..." and this double whammy, "I will be able to tell the difference as long as you have this belly."

Sighs. I love my sister, I love my baby growing in this belly but good riddance, I love myself too for pete's sake! I complained to jk and he said, "well all I can say is, your blog!" Ah, he's correct though.

Bummer, it's like I've brought all this upon myself and right now at the moment, it just feels too heavy and I wanna peel this off of myself and run naked for days.

fashion talk, embarassing moment and a fun night

howdy! Pregnancy's great! Now let's move onto something more interesting.

Here is the number 1 reason why you should never be caught dead wearing sweatpants in the public...



This was taken through my sidekick at the SSI office. That lady bent over so low that when her wide butt stretched the sweatpants, the huge gaping hole slowly revealed a pink, white and red striped undies beneath. I wanted to walk up to her and tell her not to bend because she had a hole that had most of us gawking in stunned silence at her butt. But, I didn't have any pen or paper nor did I have muster the courage to go up and inform her. Instead, I horribly snapped a picture and snickered. Everyone should know better, don't ever wear sweatpants in public, even if you're feeling sick!! Especially men! Good lord, do they realize that their balls and weenie some how miraculously and disgustingly increase tenfolds in size?

Again, avoid sweatpants and you'll not have ur butts snapped.

Now, aside from that lady's dilemma, here's mine that happened today. Most of us know that the deaf community is tiny, right? Well. It has struck me today with an incredible slam in my face hard lesson learned. JK and I pulled into a parking lot of a plaza and as I was getting out, I noticed a man who seemed a little bit off, staring at me as he walked across the parking lot. He kept walking, stopping and turning to stare then turned away. He did that like 3 times and believe me, I did not want to have some idiot staring at me.

I started feeling uncomfortable... finally, as he crossed the parking lot and got on the curbside, he turned and stared at me, as if he was thinking or just simply staring... I got into this bitch mode and said, "WHAT?!" raising my hands up into the air and had that "what's your f. problem, huh?!?!"

I noticed he looked taken aback and stuttered as he was trying to sign "are you deaf?"

I kept doing the antics by saying, "stop staring at me!!!" in ASL

He finally signed... "you work at school? you teach?"

my heart jumped up into my throat, and my thoughts were reeling... "what the heck? oh shit, and who the heck are you?!?!"

finally, he said my name is ---- my kids are ---- and -----... you teach at school?"

oh shit. I teach his kids. I sincerely hope he was a little bit out of it as he did look tired... or it was probably my crazy behavior scared him witless.

Well. From now and on, I'll always remember, "you're in Fremont, you're a teacher in public at all times, not CLARE"

Just like sweatpants, don't get caught being a dramatic angry bitch in public!

Finally, last night I had a good time at Moe's jewelry party (I didn't buy anything but simply sat, ate and chatted). Last night's topic of the night for me was 1) twin issues and 2) pregnancy.

There was a fun moment when we all girls decided to bang together two pots to test if Rochy reacted to the noise. Well, when the pots were banged together, Rochy did move a little. I have to admit that it was so funny that I really enjoyed having everyone talk about the baby inside of me or talk about labor, delivery or their experiences as being pregnant.

I made a comment, "I know Rochy is a boy, I just know it... if it turns out to be a girl, I'd shit in my pants..." then I corrected myself, "I meant, I'd shit on the table."

all the mommies who had delivered knew what this meant and roared into laughter and said, "you will anyway!"

Well, I had fun, enough to have me stay there past my bedtime (usually 9 pm)... I needed that, the gathering of kindred and intelligent females who know how to have fun and aren't (too) judgmental, grins.

Here are some pictures of Cat and I last night, can you tell the difference? :) That was the topic last night, "how do we tell the difference between you two?"





Well, I'm off to Trader Joe's to get brisket beef and cook up a storm for tonight's dinner.

hugs hugs!

tummy pix time!

if you can see on my week 26 picture, my left eyelid was mysteriously swollen for a day. Dunno why.

I've had strangers touching my belly and so far, I haven't found it offending or uncomfortable. It makes me happy to see a person smile when they touch my belly. Well, so far they all have been women, I dunno what I'd do if it was a strange man!!

POW! :-D good night, I could talk some more but am too tired to care :) mwah mwah

SBC sucks.

Hello! I was victimized by a corporation who decided to cut our connection for 3 and a half week of sheer silence... our apartment does not allow us to have choices in getting services but force us to go with SBC, a crappy piece of shit company that jerked us around for almost a month. Anyway, enough venting, it's SO good to have our connection back AT home. I really didn't feel right blogging or browsing for personal reasons at work! Goodness know whether there was a big brother on campus.

Anyway, a lot has happened! Did I tell anyone that I got to hug Woody Harrelson? Nice man. I think I taught him "thank you" in sign language, so if any of you see him sign thanks, it'll have to be credited to ME! :-D

I had a lot of inspiring tales to share, unfortunately the stupid "disconnected, sorry no can do for you sir" dampened my mood to be brilliant. Fret not, I'll catch up with them anyway.

Today is my first day of our 3rd trimester of pregnancy, wow! I'm now 7 months pregnant and starting to feel really pregnant. Some say I am glowing, some seem concerned when I try to get out of a chair or whatever. So far, I'm loving it, especially when Rochy squirms and I can feel every movement.

Anyway, I think I got some cute pictures of Zeus, my kittie. She has this toy she LOVES so much and she always spend time on it when I'm not bugging her. It's a toy where there's a ball inside the "track" and it goes around in a circle... in the middle, there is a cardboard for her to satisfy her clawing needs... adorned with catnip. I've snapped several pictures of her on it, the first two was from the same night and the third one is from last night.





this picture... she was ko'd, in her heavy la la land that my sounds did not even wake her up. I jarred her awake when I cooed, "aww kittie!!" that was, after taking pictures. See one of her eye a bit ajar? It was open but her white lid (third eye lid) was covering it. so, she really was OUT.



Well, it's saturday. It's raining on the first day of October... our first rain in the bay area for a long time, perfect. I'll take a picture of my tummy and post up the most updated pix. I noticed I took pictures of myself in the morning. Bad idea, I never heard of anyone not having puffy eyes in the morning... so I'll gracefully wait until the afternoon and try to take pretty pictures of myself without the puffiness.

Alright, I'll stop for now. Just wanted to emphasize one more time, SBC sucks!

ta-ta!

ooh yea, one more thing, check out my sis' blog, she posted great b/w pictures... her blog's in my link section and titled as "aye yi yi!"

pictures are worth a 1000 words....

preggers update

Hello!! I daily grow and grow, with some stretching pains mind ya. Before my tummy would "stick" out but it's more rounder right now. I get to feel Rochy kick everyday, they're strong kicks and sometimes s/he rolls around, forming shapes on my belly. It's hard to believe that we're 6 months pregnant now. The downside of this pregnancy is, peeing every two frickin' hours when trying to sleep through the night and having some discomfort in my back and belly area as it's growing.

yesterday I packed away my pre-preggers clothes and I think I tried to suppress a tear or two. My maternity wardobe is so pathetic and I look like a minister's wife or something like that. It doesn't matter, 3 more months left and I'll have vacations soon (thanksgiving, winter break) so, take away 3 weeks of having to wear appropriate clothes... plus weekends, so that'd mean I only have 2 more months left of wearing those "miss 2 goody shoes" clothes, yay.

I dreamt that I wore my favorite stretch Gap jeans and it fit perfectly. I woke up and started feeling my belly, trying to make sure that I didn't have a flat tummy. I also cannot bend over to pick up things I drop (which seems to be a thing I've done too frequently lately!!!). Especially when I'm teaching, I drop those dry eraser markers, three times per class and at the end when everyone leaves, I bend over ever so carefully and collect markers off the floor. It's way too tedious!!

All in all, I'm perfectly healthy and already counting the days until Winter Break (december 16).

Some of you have been asking if Jason and I finished our registry for the baby. Well, we did a while ago but just never got around to emailing it! We've registered at both Babies R' Us (and it kind of sucks because most of the things we requested aren't available online, only in store, duh!) and Target. Here are the links to our registries:

Target's Registry
Babies R' Us Registry

Here;s the most updated pic of my belly:



And I like this one due to the shadow showed on the post of our patio :)



Alright, I'm off to have a busy Sunday. I'm glad tomorrow's off as well, I cannot imagine having to go back to work tomorrow, after two weeks of nonstop working, I'd go mad!!

Cheerios.